Monday, January 6, 2014

Grief is a strange and unpredictable monster.

It's been just over two weeks since my mother-in-law passed away and I find myself all mixed up. When I'm home I feel fine and it bothers me. I am torn between feeling bad that I'm not sad and being thankful that I'm handling it okay. But the moment I step out the door I feel lost, empty, sad and vulnerable. I want a hug but at the same time I just want to be left alone.

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  1. I decided to visit your blog after seeing a lamp of your's on Craftster.

    My MIL passed away in 2012 and it took me a little over a year before I started feeling normal again. With her passing, I turned into a hateful little bitch. She was a good woman. I knew she loved me and was fiercely loving of her son (my husband).

    However, my own mom passed in November 2013, so I'm feeling lost and alone again. I would love to just have a hug too, mostly from my husband. But he's in the navy and the captain wouldn't let him return home when she was dying, even with a Red Cross request. Most of my friends bailed on me for a couple of weeks after she died. I thought that was going to kill me.

    So, here's a verbal hug from me to you. Hang in there Pookie. We can get through it.

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    1. Aww, I'm sorry about your mom! Especially sorry that you're going through this alone. It's just so weird, I go from being incredibly sad and lost to not believing that she's gone. I loved her as much as I love my own mother. We had so much in common, she was also extremely crafty. So over the past 12 years she has been who I've turned to for advice and one of the major people that looked forward to seeing what I made next.

      Hugs to you as well, it won't be easy but we'll both get through this!

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    2. I've decided that I want to get a memorial tattoo for both of them. It will be a way to incorporate them together. People I work with are surprised that my next tattoo will feature my MIL with my mom. I forget that not everyone gets along with their MIL. :)

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    3. I already have my appointment scheduled, lol. My artist books up WAY in advance so it isn't until October but I am on the cancellation list. :)

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